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Have you ever just been really, really diappointed in someone?

Maybe it was due to something they said or didn’t say. Maybe it was because of something they did or didn’t do.

I am feeling a great deal of disappointment in a few people at this very moment. It is really nothing new, I have felt this disappointment in these same people time and again. It makes me sad that their actions, or rather lack of actions, affect others that I love very deeply. It makes me actually kind of angry that these people have been like this for what seems like forever and no matter what kinds of subtle hints are dropped, they never seem to get it. They will never understand, or know, how their actions affect others. Their loved ones.

Maybe I need to just brush it off, like others close to me have been doing for practically their entire life. I just can’t seem to let it go, though. And, even though other’s brush off their disappointment, it never really goes away. It just builds and builds and builds, until eventually disappointment turns into resentment. Resentment is never a good thing. It is not healthy to resent someone because of how they make you feel.

It would be nice if all of this could just get put out in the open, but that will never happen. Well, considering my state of mind right now, it wouldn’t take much provocation to get me to burst! That probably would not be the best way to air grievances, though.

Actually, one of the biggest problems has been addressed already. A few years ago, a loved one approached one of these people with his concerns. The outcome was not what was expected, though. Instead of understanding, this person was made to feel that all of these problems were his own fault. It was not the fault of other’s involved, but solely because of him. Looking back on this, it is not hard to see how things could have gotten turned around. This seems to be a pattern, everything always seems to be this one particular persons fault. The problem here, though, is that it is not his problem or his fault. He has just been too easy and let too much stuff go without causing a stink about it before. He has become an easy scape-goat to other’s problems. It really makes me sad and thus the disappointment grows more.

It’s very sad, also, to think that these actions and my feelings affect my children. I want to protect them from anything like this ever happening to them. I will not continue to expose them to these toxic people who don’t seem to be able to show any kind of real love or appreciation towards others. It has pretty much come down to this already. The more disappointment and resentment that I feel towards these people, just kind of makes me want to cut all ties with them. Too bad it’s easier said than done.

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